04 Jan
Well, today I didn’t went in for sermon cuz I’m very tired. By the time I went in, pastor said something that catches my attention. He said “God is asking us to go into his presents. Becuz He has all the good thing for us.” Why should I go to work for other while my own father can take care of me? Why should I seek for things that can satisfy me while I can rest in God’s presents? Yes.. A lot of questions have been asked but what are the answers? I did ask my boss that day what he thinks about life. He’s a free thinker. He say for him the most important things in life is happiness. Well, what he said is like what I’m doing now which is trying to live my life to the fullest. I put effort in my work I enjoy entertainment with friends. But I believe that’s not enough. There’s another purpose God has in my life.
08 Jan
While I’m writing this, I’m holding my tears. Just now my colleague told me that my bosses appreciate me and their business is expanding after I went to work there. Now I finally understand what my mom told me before that God’s people will bring blessings to people surrounding. I’ve been waken by these words. These days, I’m a bit lost in my direction in life. But I choose to believe God has His purpose for me. I’m sorry because I’m blinded by my own thinking and not letting God to guide me. You're so good to me and I didn't notice it. Before this I don’t really know what is a father’s love. But today I know, I can feel His love for me. Thank you Lord for your fatherly love. I’m not perfect, thank you for accepting me.
